Long Week...

Sorry i haven't posted in a w a few days. I have a long week. my uncle was killed overseas in Iraq. the funeral was yesterday. So long week for me. Anyways this guy Marko..uhhhh i dunno. Its hard because i feel so much for him. But he has been burned in the past so he is more cautious than i am. Which i understand completely. At the same time i just wish he trusted it more. But oh well no worries. It will all work out. And 311 is getting to close its giving me butterflies:] So this is the first time i have ever had feelings like this about a man. It hard to explain how it feels. Its like i day dream all day. I dunno I'm just being crazy i guess. He gives me butterflies and i love every second of it. I guess that's what its about. Ahhhh. I know i am young and I'm being naive. But its just so hard not to with him. I dint get it.

TGIF

Its finally Friday. i don't have to work today so that's a plus. I do have lots of things to do though. Hopefully i will be able to go to the beach today. So here is something maybe you can help me with. If you have never been in love before or fallen for someone. How do you know when you have? Is it something you just know? Just some random thoughts there. I'm getting very excited about this concert I'm going to with Marko. It should be amazingly fun. Oh i ma going to do the Relay For Life today. The Starbucks i work at participates in it every year. We go in shifts and a couple of us stay the whole time. Its a bunch of fun and i encourage you to get involved. If you don't already know its a walk in remembrance on Breast Cancer survivors and the ones who lost their lives too. So i have to go there at some point today. Well I'm going to start my day now. Talk to you later.

Michele♥

The Haunting in Connecticut and a Bad Phone Call

So i said i would come back and tell you about the movie i saw lastnight The Haunting in Connecticut. Well it was suprisingly a pretty ok movie. I got scared a few times which was the intentions of them movie. So job well done. The reaons im just now updating is because as soon as i got out of the movie i got a phone call from work. Ughhh why did i have to answer it? As soon as i did i knew i would be going to work that night on my day off. So the person on the other end was a manager, like myself. She did the whole ohhh im sick blahhh blah blahh. So i went in and worked. When i got home last ngiht i laid in bed and thought. Why do i always say yes? Why do i always cover for other people. I decided im not going to do it anymore. Well that was my night. Today was a bit better i talked to Marko for a little while. We complained about work to each other. Then it happened. I felt butterflies in my stomach...butterflies? Haha i am starting to like this Marko quite a bit. Maybe too much but its ok im gonna go with the flow and see where it takes me, and him. Now im doing some research and thinking. Thinking about how badly i want to go to Africa right now and help people. That is what i truely want to do. Well im off for now. Ill be back later to write more. Talk to you later.

Michele♥

Rain Rain Go Away.

Today is a rainy day. It rained all night and its still raining. Ughhh i could be at the beach. I have no work today only a class later to consider. So around 11 30ish last night i got on my AOL instant messenger and got an IM from this Marko guy. It was a nice little suprise. We talked for a little while about our concert plans and my plans for shool next year. I will be transfering colleges next spring. ANd i have yet to decide where i'll be going. It will either be in central Florida or on the West coast of Florida. Well im just going to put that decisions off for now. Until i absolutly have to choose. Anyways this rain is beggining to ruin my plans of tanning all day. I guess thats Florida for ya, sunshine one minute and rain the next. So this book i started writing could use some work i guess. I have written 5,000 words so far. Its about a girl who has some addictions and shes trying to find her way in the world. Its pretty good so far, i think. I haven't had the issue of writers block yet. I just sit and the words pour out of my mind. Im hoping this blog will help me work on my writing and meet new people. Learn new things i suppose too. I just got a phone call from a friend and i guess i just made plans to go see a movie with her. We are going to see that movie "A Haunting In Conneticut". I don't know if it is worth the money or not. But i will inform you when we get back. Im off now to go for a run then get ready for this movie adventure. Talk to you later

Michele♥

More About The New Guy.

So as i mentioned before i haven't been in a serious relationship since December of 2007. So i met this new guy his name Marko. So far he's pretty amazing. I mean I'm young and naive so who really knows. But he is keeping me smiling, isn't that whats important? Well i think it is at least. How can you be happy with someone who can't make you smile? I can't, but every ones different. Well anyways he a few years older than me but nothing extreme. He's very ambitious i think that's what attracts me so much to him. I'm one of those hopeless romantics. Its a curse and a blessing in itself. I'm afraid i might be falling to easily. At the same time its hard not to. I guess you the only way to learn is to do. We are going to a concert for my birthday which is April 26th. I will be 20 years young. It was his idea and i couldn't turn down a concert. Its one of my the greatest things that we are able to enjoy. That's just my opinion though. So were going to have lunch go to an art museum then off to see 311 in concert. Men scare me sometimes. They can be capable of crazy things. Then again so can women. Marko is very much like me and that scares me. Since December of 2007 i have made it a point to distance myself from relationships. I ended a horrible mistake of a relationship that really confused me one what a man really was. Now I'm over it and finally ready to share myself with someone. I wish that a romance like the one in "Breakfast at Tiffany's" was possible. By the way AMAZING movie if you haven't see it i recommend it. Greatest love story ever written. Besides Romeo and Juliet of course. So this I'm going to keep you posted on this new guy Marko. Hopefully it works out for me. But I'm trying not to get my hopes up...any advice?

Michele♥

Ughh Caffine.

I just got home from work and i smell like caffine! I know that sounds weird but when you work for Starbucks it happens sometimes. When i come home sometimes i get the "you smell like coffee" comment. I smile and think to myself "shouldnt i smell like coffee after working in a coffee house all day". Oh well thats not an importnant topic anyways. I decided I m going to write a book. Is that weird? That I just DECIDED I want to write a book. I guess I have been reading some intersting fiction lately and it made me think, I could write that! People are making money off of something that comes so easily to me. SHould't i at least attempt to profit off of it? It's worth a shot. I haven been doing a lot of thinking lately. Where is my life going. I mean i work full-time and I'm in college, but what does that even mean anymore? People who have an amazing education can't find a job anywhere these days. Ughh the economy is effecting me more than i even realize. I guess thats how everyone more feels at this point. I'm just lucky to have a good job and some what of an education. I keep changing topics but my mind is all over the place today. I met this guy recently and we have been talking alot. See i have been single from a serious relationshop since December of 2007. Yeah long time haha. This guy though he is quit different and he makes me smile. You see im not one of those girls caought up in materilistic things. I prefer a sweet guy who wants to cuddle up on the couch and watch a movie instead of going out and partying. But thats just me. I have never needed money to make me happy and it never will. But more about me in my next post, deal? Well I'm off to study so we'll talk soon:]

Michele